Thursday, April 06, 2006

Me

(well, not really me, don't be mislead by the title)

Despite having had a nice day, I find myself a little under the weather. Perhaps I'm tired, perhaps it's just a "natural" sadness that comes and goes - is there such thing?
Nothing too serious but I take this chance to dwell on a sad song I've been thinking about and reflects how I feel about my own unhappiness/sadness - may it be temporary or permanent. (No intentions to get you depressed whatsoever, forgive me ;)

"And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing I love
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing I love

I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better"

"Me" - Paula Cole

15 comments:

fb said...

I have that postcard from years ago, I got it in Paris...

Devil Mood said...

Oh is it a postcard? I didn't know, I just got it from gettyimages. I added a caption saying it isn't me, in case people think so.

Connie and Rob said...

Take care. I hope you feel better tomorrow.

Connie

DayByDay4-2Day said...

That song hits it on the head. Often we say that person made me or they made me feel that way or it's their fault I'm in this situation when really it's ourself. We made the decision to follow through on what ever it was. Even if another person thought of it or suggested something it is us who made the move to have those feelings or troubles or problems. Therfore it is only ourself who can change it. No one else can do it for us. We have to change how we feel or what we do or who we are.

Change requires change. If we don't make the changes necassary then we will only sit in the grief.

Devil Mood said...

Connie: thanks, I do feel better. Take care of yourself!

Day: That's precisely what I meant. Not that everything is our fault but we all have some degree of power.

kimananda said...

Sometimes it is good to feel a bit sad, because it gets us to think about things (things in the larger sense, as in 'life's questions' type of things). Enjoy it, if I may use that verb, and see where it takes you! :-)

Devil Mood said...

Kimananda: of course. As people usually say in psychology, crisis is development ;) I didn't question myself much yesterday though...maybe next time he he

enleaver said...

that is such a nice picture.

our minds have weird ways of working. sometimes people don't understand why they think in a certain way. sometimes there are so many reasons to feel down that we don't even know where to begin the story. i hope you feel better tomorrow.

Cathy said...

I hope you're feeling better!

Maddy said...

i am taking this to heights
and personalizing this but
....i feel this rather lately...i get in my own way so to speak
and it is always about fear for me...which stinks...
i love your posts...
all of them ...

Devil Mood said...

Valerene: We are very complicated puzzles :) But that is great! If we were as plain as a white sheet, it wouldn't be fun at all.

Cathy: Thanks, I'm feeling good.

Maddy: Oh thanks, you're making me blush. Fear stinks in general ;)

Chloe said...

if you do know there's something better, there's no need for alarm. i think you are going to seek it out eventually, no matter how afraid or shy you are. "You" here as in "all of us"
xx

Devil Mood said...

Chloe: Yes, I think and hope so, for all our sakes :) The timings vary.

Bobbb - Citizen of Earth said...

Allow yourself to Feel the way you feel - And thats OK for your feelings are your own
Yin / Yang - the low times help define the high times - with out the one there would not be the other - just Sameness...
boreing
I learn about myself during the lows - and from the hights...
I enjoy the view!

Devil Mood said...

Bobbb: That's a great philosophy for living and very well written :)