Friday, March 02, 2007

Fools in love

The other day I was feeling happy. Not just happy, I was excited, enthusiastic, bursting out of myself with thirst for life - I probably feel the Spring coming - when that happens I get thirsty for life, real physical thirst!
Anyway, I'm not usually this happy (normally I feel regular, not too good, not too bad, just go with the flow) so I had to tell my friend that I was feeling like that. And she said something really interesting! She said that whenever she feels like that, whenever she's smiling over something simple and feeling good about life, she thinks she must be an inherently happy person.
I thought this was fabulous, it would never have crossed my mind. Now that I think about it, I probably know why she had this kind of thought. I don't think she'll mind if I say that she has a lot of energies in her 1st house, the house of identity, so she must find herself focusing on who she is, what she is and what she isn't frequently. Okay, I didn't mean to mix Astrology here, but I had to.

This idea came to me again last night. I wasn't particularly happy nor sad. Before I fell asleep I was listening to music and was swept away by emotions, by a flow of feelings that I couldn't control. Nothing that I'm not used to by now. Then it occurred to me that, if I was able to feel like that with a couple of songs, when I'm not even in love*, then I'm not dead inside. Not that I ever thought I was dead, but when you leave teenage years behind some things aren't quite as exciting as they were before.
If I felt so much with so little, then I must be an inherently emotional, enthusiastic person. I should have a whole stock of emotional states to pour out. A whole lot of tantrums, fits, enthusiasm, laughter and pure emotion to present to the world. And if I felt like that with a simple song, I can't imagine what I'll feel like when I finally fall in love...again.
Uhh...brace yourself, Devil Mood!

Song of the night and the day - I love this!
Fools in Love by Inara George
"Fools in love they think they're heroes
Cause they can't feel no pain
I say fools in love are zeros
I should know,
I should know because this fool's in love again"

*because when you're in love, you can get emotional over anything, at least from my experience.


Niall said...

"Fools in love think they're heroes"..we're back to the phone booth again!

I love the first photo..this has got to be some kind of visual interpretation of your emotional overflowing!..Red Devilmood!

dharmabum said...

i don't bother too much about the vagaries of the mind. coz it is by nature so....vague, like u said :)

but it would be nice to watch u swept off your feet by your very own prince charming. i am sure there would be that raw energy niall says, red devilmood!

samantha the cat said...

hey! i hope i din leave this comment to the wrong person...

Devil Mood said...

Niall: The colours and the pattern seemed appropriate to the post, so I guess you're right - it's a visual aid to the emotional stuff.

Dharmabum: Raw, red...sounds scary heheh! Vague confuses me but many things are vague, so I have to deal with it.

Samantha: You probably did, but nevermind :)

Sophie said...

well i just love you.

i love your pictures your moods your pure essence.

and you are nice to me even though
i cannot spell.

love love love the red!

Ps said...

Such stark honesty.As long as you are happy how does it matter whether you are a fool in love or a wise person in love?
Loved both pictures you used.
The second picture is a lovely Indian classical dance called 'Bharathanatyam'.It takes many years of practise.I learnt it for two years and then lost interest.

Devil Mood said...

Sophie: lol of course, you can spell, don't be silly! But I'm not one to judge that. Thanks for your inspiring words :)

PS: Oh, thanks for telling me that! I would have no idea, to me it was just an indian-inspired-painting - many of these things are just 'inspired' and don't reflect any kind of real Indian tradition. I'm glad this isn't the case. I took this picture at a cafe/shop/art gallery downtown.

Scholiast said...

Off topic again, I'm afraid -- my condolances on Porto's exit. The (other) unmentionable team did it again, the ba**ds...

... But at least there was one fair result tonight :)

Devil Mood said...

I won't warn you again, that's cheating ;) We were close to beating them, but in the end money always wins, sadly :(

Stephanie said...

I've been reading an article in a yoga magazine about living in the moment, and though not completely the same, this post reminds me of that.

I've been thinking to much about whys and what happeneds, and need to just let it all go and just "be"

Devil Mood said...

Stephanie: I'm sure that's not easy to do, but we can try and when it works, it's fantastic! Sometimes we have to think as well, there's nothing wrong with that :)