And if I die today I'll be the HAPPY Phantom
And I'll go chasin' the nuns out in the yard
And I'll run naked through the streets without my mask on
And I will never need umbrellas in the rain
I'll wake up in strawberry fields every day
And the atrocities of school I can forgive
The HAPPY phantom has no right to bitch
Oo-ho the time is getting closer
Oo-ho time to be a ghost
Oo-ho every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will I pay for who I've been?
(Tori Amos - the Happy Phantom)The atrocities of school, the atrocities of classmates, the atrocities of nuns, the atrocities of family members...the secrets, the envy, the double-bind sentences, the learnt guilt...the heavy scars of a lost happiness, the experiences that mark us forever and will always be a part of who we are.
Today I cry for it all because it never goes away and with time you get to see it all in a new light.
*the image is a reference to the double-bind communication, it's a paradox. And it's also my hommage to a family therapist and psychologist Paul Watzlawick, who died last month - he used to say that it's impossible not to communicate in everything you do and don't (do).
**I'm just sad, nothing to worry about.
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11 comments:
well that sucks sweetie -
hugs :( i am thinking of you....
(hugs)
Aww! Lots and lotsa hugs to ya, if it makes you feel any better :)
És insondável... ;P
Essas coisas fazem parte de ti, mas já passaram. Tens muitas coisas boas agora... há q cultivá-las (e eu até acho q o estás a fazer).
:) eu gosto de ti
Maddie: Thanks, I'm fine now :) It was one of my devil moods...
Miss Iyer: They do, thanks for the hugs, dear!
Cat: Beijinhos! lol Insondável, de facto, mas não é de propósito. Sai-me...lol
This is what is called "damned if you do--and damned if you don't".(excuse the language)
Double bind was really interesting.
"learnt guilt", "heavy scars of a lost happiness"..Perhaps guilt erased can turn scars into stars?
Completely oof topic but they entertained me for a bit:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1UvrA7L-CEY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLyqEXP05mA
i like what ps said "Perhaps guilt erased can turn scars into stars?"
i also like "he who has been forgiven much, loves much" this is from somewhere in the New Testament (not sure where.. I believe Jesus spoke these words)
After being in the states, and seeing such coverage of the Virginia Tech murders, this is really resonating with that for me. It's not a wonder that the theory was originally for analyzing schizophrenic communication....
Devil,
I am sad today too...but I sing Happy Phantom often in the shower, so you made me smile...
Novel
nice pics..that basketball courts cool..and the last oone is indeed teh Winner!!!!!!
PS: Wow, that was completely poetic and full of hope :) thank you!
FB: Will check them out soon. thanks in advance, even though I don't know what they are.
Holychaos: Thanks for that quote and what PS said was fabulous. We should carry around a book of quotes on difficult times :)
Kimananda: You're right! I've been thinking a lot about double-bind and also related it with those terrible shootings...These hidden messages are everywhere and we don't know the extent of their effects.
Novel: Good! It is a happy song because she's deciding to put the past behind her, even though she seems a little frightened of the final jugdement. But she'll be a happy phantom and that's good. Or maybe she's not happy at all...I'm unsure now lol
Standbymind: Thank you! I'm happy you liked them and appreciate your visit :)
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