Friday, September 28, 2007

This is me


Today I was listening to Pink Martini (it's my current trend) and the song began:


I wish a falling star could fall forever

And that's how it is for me. Especially with written. I've been writing like a lunatic this week. A real lunatic because it was as if my imagination had gained a life independent of my own. It started with an innocuous sentence in a book and then I gathered a bit from here, a bit from there and it magically exploded like a cake in the oven (when you don't forget a certain special ingredient). It lead to me being in bed and not being able to sleep because there were sentences being formed in my head without any sort of effort. I had to get up and write them down. And for the first time in my life I actually thought this story was good enough to go places because it has many different ingredients (I seem to be really hungry these days) and it's not completely pathetic and self-indulgent (yet).

But back to the star: what I meant is that I wish these inspiring and thrilling moments lasted longer because I never know when I'm going to be bored again and leave the story in a dark corner. Today, for instance, I feel less inspired than before, I seem to have reached one of those points when you don't know how to make a bridge to something else. I don't want this to die. I need this story to breathe and evolve and become enriched.

Then I also thought that it could never last forever; if it did, it would stop meaning anything, it would be normal, not a falling star. And the song came back to me with this:


I know a falling star can't fall forever
But let's never stop falling in love.
Oh, that sounds fair.

13 comments:

Jen said...

yes, I know what you mean...
you find yourself doing something that you know is "going somewhere"...shooting somewhere! and it does stop...but it has reminded you of what you love, or what is important to you...

I am glad for times that keep me up that are filled with feelings of hope and joy and possibilities...

but I long for the time when I feel the joy in the background...in the sky...it is there but for the storms of life that pass through and it still is home to a shooting star now and again...

just remember which corner you leave such a story in, if you do...because you never know...it may be helpful to you...

or you may just find another star..it's cousin, perhaps...another story that could go somewhere...

and then to have to choose...and it will be the one that you choose that has that best chance to try...to maybe bring you that kind of satisfaction...I hope so!

I enjoy what you write...
I like how you start and end this post.....I'm glad I visited...this inspires me...during a time of lots of thinking (too much, even for me hehe...I think :oP )

and now I'll wish upon this shooting star

Jen said...

hi again!...thanks for comment ...replied there..
so where are you going devilmood...what is your dream ultimately....are you heading there....: ) I'm nosey.

Maddie said...

Oh! I love that place you are in -
the writing fever - and as I read
your blog posts I am always
amazed at your beauty in the
written word - so I think your
writing is a shooting star -
that blazes on forever:)

DayByDay4-2Day said...

Now I don't get like that with writing, but I do with painting. Sometimes it just flows from my brush and other days nothing.

Miss Iyer said...

ooh how beautiful. A writing fever. I wish I had it all the time :) Good luck and God bless! Keep writing DevilM :)

Niall said...

Believe me ,i know EXACTLY how you feel!!It is the same when I get the initial inspiration for one of my pictures..I go at it like my life depended on it..but as you well know..it is often weeks/months until I finish. It is a matter of discipline..those times when all the inspiration seems to have gone of in search of someone else, is when you use the special gift you have ..you may have a plot outlned..the hard work is connecting the points in the story..it's 'work'..and you have to put in the hours when you don't feel like it. We all know you can do it..now go and do it!! I totally agree with the words Jen wrote earlier...I too enjoy what you write, you have the abillity to make the reader 'see'.

Stephanie said...

I think the times of fierce creativity are unpredictable and fleeting so that we appreciate them more. (And also, because if one lived in that state, one's head might explode.)

I feel like I catch moments of inspiration from the corner of my eye, when I am open to things, but not striving too hard. I think it is only natural...to give chase to the muse.

PS - My poetry class in college recommended a book about writing, which you might like. I know, a book about writing - it seems silly. It's about the creative process in general, and your post reminds me of it. I'll try to track it down.

kimananda said...

It's magical that feeling, more so that you can take advantage of it, let it happen. But, yes, the hard work is still working when the magic subsides for a while. I've been told though, that it comes back, all the more often if you cultivate it.

chrispito said...

yay! I'm so happy for you! there's nothing like the spark of creativity to get you up and running.

phish said...

ah! i feel what you write. and the adage at the end, though part of a song has been my mantra for a long time now.

hope you make good of this phase. really.

diyadear said...

wud love t read the stories u write..

MAHIMA said...

i love
"i wish a falling star could fall forever"
it gives me dreams and wings, almost.
i wish you inspirations and good coffee :)

holy chaos said...

i am curious to know what you are writing. I read the best book that I bet you would like. Have you read "Bel Canto" by Ann Patchett?

wonderful read